The Talk

So we talked, and talked, and talked. Got through a lot of shit and I think we're better for it. I'm supposed to move in on the weekend. I'm still so afraid we're making a terrible mistake.I'm afraid that I'm not ready to leave home. It makes me really anxious and I want to panick. I have to remember to breeeeeath. So what should I do? If I tell him I don't want to move in it will lead to us breaking up...I don't even know if that's a bad idea which makes it so much scarier. If I can live without him why the fuck am I moving in with him and planning to marry him? Because break-ups are hard? I'm such an idiot.

Todays intake was not terrible today. Breakfast was a piece of bread with nutella, lunch was mixed berries, and dinner was a bit of pasta, yes pasta. I didn't get to my bike today because I went to the fiancees place right after work. Will tomorrow though.

I'm having this problem where I get really dizzy and lethargick. I thought it was because I'm getting off my pills but then I realized I had to take time off work about 3 months ago because I was having inner ear problems that were making me really dizzy and sick. I think I may need a catscan or something. Either way I'm going to the doctor as soon as I can. Wish me luck on all of those thing and if you have any advice about the fiancee even if it's harsh. You guys are awesome. Thank you for all the other comments by the way/