My started terribly. I felt feverish and vomited at work. About half an hour after that though I felt alright...it was weird.
After work I went out with some friends to the bar. I had 3 vodka and cranberry juice's. I had an iced coffee for breakfast (oh the calories!) and I wont even say the rest. I'm ravenous right now but it's 11:30 if I ate now I would have to purge it all up and plus I would have terrible nightmares.
Tomorrow me and the fiancee are having an alone night to watch movies and have dinner, BARF (literally). I think this will be the week we will break up. Not that things aren't going well but I realized that when it comes down to it I really could live without him. He thinks we're getting married whereas I know that some point down the road it's going to end before that. I feel like I shouldn't keep it going any longer if I have no intention of marrying him. It would be selfish not to, I do love him but he also makes me miserable.
I want to be single sometimes. Single and light as a feather.
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i was in a similar predicament a few months ago with my bf. (who had asked me to marry him, i politely declined) i knew it was going to end way before he wanted it to, so we split. and now i can totally focus on working out, counting calories, blogging and whatnot. i have gotten my "me" time back!
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i also LOVE the thinspo video "Ricochet" by Shiny Toy Guns. I always use thinspo music (from vids on youtube) in my workout playlists when i am at the gym. always envision gorgeous thinspo girls!
anyways. now that i have babbled..
i look forward to reading your future blogs :)
good luck with everything!