Chins

I can feel my double chin bobbling around every time I move. I have the taste of old food in my mouth and no matter how much I brush it wont leave.

People keep commenting on how thin I look. Oh joy in comparrison to all the fattys in this town I'm on the thinner side of the spectrum. That just shows how disgusting this town is. So I found out yesterday that my scale is off bt 10 pounds. So instead of me being 140 Im 150. Can you imagine having that fucking blow? It broke me. I'm on autopilot right now and I don't want to hit the switch for me to take over living.

I want to go off my antidepressants but summer is the worst time for my anxiety attacks. If I get the dose jacked up it will make me feel full for at least 2 weeks. I'm still debating. I think I'm going to the doctor tomorrow though for a bunch of stuff so maybe it's a sign to get it doubled or something.

My parents are going to want their computer back any second because their drunk friends are leaving so they'll want some company to entertain their buzz.

xoxo Sasha

Me

I'm 19, my name is Sasha. I have an eating disorder and I think that's ok. I was 195 pounds at my worst. I'm 150 now. I love the feeling I get when I'm full of water and nothing else. I'm canadian. Any Canadian Ana's looking for a buddy for texting or emailing leave me your adress and we'll hook up.

Today has been a bad one. had 3 handfulls of chips and a bowl of pasta salad. I feel disgusting. I'm going to have a bath and read my copy of Wintergirls for inspiration. After that I think I will take my dog for a long walk throught the part to burn some calories.

Tomorrow is gonna be a busy dau but if I can fit it in I'm gonna get in some serious work out time. I just want to be tiny. 100 pounds. Well I mean if Im gonna go to 100 I really should go to 99. I can hit double digits and that's what I want.

xoxo ttfn Sasha